Dream 7/8/08

I was in school and seeing Jaeson Ma laboring on the campus in college. He was really busy, he's all over the place. Somehow he would go into a secret place, and I would hear voices coming out of the room, and I thought it's Nita Johnson's voice. She's speaking to Jaeson. But I would not see Nita at all. Her voice sounded heavenly, it's unusual to hear someone's voice like that. I was very confused in the dream, cause first of all I thought Jaeson was burned out and needed to rest, and secondly Nita's voice sounded like an angel. Then I was on a stairway going up to the heaven. As I got to the first level, there were a few people there greeting me. They were very nice and friendly, they looked old. I did't know who they are, I didn't ask their names. But on this level or room, there were papers, pen, computers, and printers. It's like a homework room, I could do my homework on this level. So I asked them can come here to do my homework? They said Yes. I thought to myself, how come I never knew I can do homework in heavenly place? I wanted to come here every day to do my homework. But I found the stairs still goes up, and I was curious. So I walked towards the stairs. I shook the hands of two man standing near the stairs. And I walked up. This level, I felt it's the father God's room. At first I couldn't see anything because it was dark. But when I looked with my spiritual eyes, I could see brilliant light so white and strong coming out of Abba. I started to weep. My heart broke so badly that I wanted to cry, my heart ached. I thought Lord you were so beautiful, but you were so lonely. Father is all by himself. I felt most people rarely or never come into this room. And my heart kept on being drawn towards the father. I vowed to myself, I would come to this room every single day. And then somehow I knew why Nita's voice is so heavenly, because she lived in this place. She was close to the father, and carried the heart of the father, that's why her voice sounded like Abba. In the dream I went back to school, and longed to go back to the room every day. And I went up to the room again to find father God.

I felt there is another way to do evangelism and to carry out mission. It's the place of intercession and intimacy. When our hearts are united with the father, we'll have greater results in the long run, but we must go into the place of loneliness and isolation with the father. It is a lonely place to be, but that's where God wants us to be. Because in that place, I can see things from the eyes of God, and have the grace to carry out His purpose on earth. I must commit myself to be with Him every single day.