About Me
People always think I'm really holy and I have no problems in life, so they're afraid of me and feeling a sense of condemning as they approach me... ha It's not necessary at all. Are you kidding me? I can't even balance my check book, and think I got it all figure out? I know many people look up to me, but hey! we're the same! I'm learning too! I'm growing too! I am immature in many areas, and still learning to trust Him more like you are.
So people shut me out many times, like I never feel rejection or loneliness?? Ha! You got to be joking. I cried many times because of rejection from friends/relatives/authority. That's why I feel like I needed Him so much, because I am so weak on the inside. Because I don't have it all figure out. That's why I come before Him and cry. I shed tears of sorrow before Him, because of my stupidity and insufficiency.
And if you call me intense, you're miss out! If you think I'm on fire? You're out of your mind! Seriously! Read the biography of John G. Lake, just his first sermon on why Africa has revival and America doesn't? He remarked because we don't have enough of blood of the martyrs. Check out Wesley and Edwards. They went without food until the spirit of prayer comes upon them in heavy travails. Talking about Brainer in my age, He's preaching to the Natives American and getting thousands saved talking about the love of God. You got to be kidding me, I am backsliding comparing to these people! They are young people too! Just like you and I.
So let's fix upon Jesus, but not upon a man or woman. We must see the bankruptcy of our inner life, and the poverty of our soul. This will get us humble and hungry for Jesus.
So people shut me out many times, like I never feel rejection or loneliness?? Ha! You got to be joking. I cried many times because of rejection from friends/relatives/authority. That's why I feel like I needed Him so much, because I am so weak on the inside. Because I don't have it all figure out. That's why I come before Him and cry. I shed tears of sorrow before Him, because of my stupidity and insufficiency.
And if you call me intense, you're miss out! If you think I'm on fire? You're out of your mind! Seriously! Read the biography of John G. Lake, just his first sermon on why Africa has revival and America doesn't? He remarked because we don't have enough of blood of the martyrs. Check out Wesley and Edwards. They went without food until the spirit of prayer comes upon them in heavy travails. Talking about Brainer in my age, He's preaching to the Natives American and getting thousands saved talking about the love of God. You got to be kidding me, I am backsliding comparing to these people! They are young people too! Just like you and I.
So let's fix upon Jesus, but not upon a man or woman. We must see the bankruptcy of our inner life, and the poverty of our soul. This will get us humble and hungry for Jesus.
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