Testing of Faith
Sometimes our situation is miserable, seems like I'm bounded in every way. So trapped and pathetic. Feels like I'm left out and completely left behind. But when I stop and look at the Father I want to laugh, because it's actually pretty funny to see myself become such a fool and still believe Him. Don't you think the angels are laughing when Abraham believed God to bore a son at age of a 100. Isn't that pretty funny? I think so. Sometimes I look at myself left out, messed up, embarrassed and tripped up, I just want to laugh it out. Ha, God you are a really good story writer.
Tonight's worship set is not particular awesome for me, I'm tired, distracted, worried, in warfare, and all that. I come off stage feeling what did I just do, I have no idea whatever is going on. eh!! I walk of the stage disappointed at self, hungry wanting to eat. Then my teammate who is in loved with a person completely ignores me pushing me away. She offered her food, but when I just about to eat, she changed her mind took the food right away. I sat there, can't focus on the teaching at all... Worship leader is giving me a depressed look, I always have to try to cheer him up.
Tonight's worship set is not particular awesome for me, I'm tired, distracted, worried, in warfare, and all that. I come off stage feeling what did I just do, I have no idea whatever is going on. eh!! I walk of the stage disappointed at self, hungry wanting to eat. Then my teammate who is in loved with a person completely ignores me pushing me away. She offered her food, but when I just about to eat, she changed her mind took the food right away. I sat there, can't focus on the teaching at all... Worship leader is giving me a depressed look, I always have to try to cheer him up.
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