Wei told me, Alvan you know, don't spiritualize every thing. Attack always come, but don't be so intense every time switch into warfare mode, and magnify little things. Sometimes what you need is to lighten up things, go out with friends and let your heart loosen up, then you'll know what it means to be joyful and love. Getting on stage will be more and more often for you, and warfare will come too, but you'll be more and more courageous. Don't take it as a big deal. She looks me into my eyes with such tender smile and joy, I assume she knows what I'm thinking. I was just so frustrated at myself and the team.

I went out later to do much house works and groceries. Lies and shame bombarded my mind, the usual weakness comes up. I was trying to pull myself together in warfare and declaration, but my confidence is quit weak. I checked my phone, it was Wei again. I was quit nervous to hear what she has to say to me. She told me about my testimony on Sunday, which I had very little confidence on. The devil keep hitting me with lies, getting to agree that I'd done a poor testimony and should be ashamed of myself. I was very nervous to hear what she wants to say. She told me, Alvan, many people told me that you're testimony shows that your life had been broken, it has been pruned. Your speech releases life to people. I was so happy. Nothing cheers me up more than such encouragement.

God puts many mothers next to me to encourage me. I can overcome the lier.

Comments

Dan Chou said…
this is great, alvan. you are amazing!
Weitsy said…
慢慢的,你能認識你在神眼中的價值,你就能不在乎人的肯定,而從神得到滿足。你知道你見證時,神與你同在,你知道你作每件事時,神從來沒有離開過,聖靈一直樂意幫助你走每一步路。這就是信心的開始。我們有把握神喜悅我們。我在一個保守的教會,如果我樣樣要討人的肯定、喜悅、誇獎,我必死無疑。神在我身上就有路了。簡單相信神,只要你天天親近祂、愛祂、在乎祂、依靠祂,祂一定與你同在。

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