God of Restoration
God is good. I want to share this amazing testimony to you.
I'd lost my cell phone, wallet, and my new sports coat during my visit to Ihop. I was greatly disappointed. It's been so long now, I had lost all hope.
Today as I'm watching these videos below. My heart was stirred and so touched. I feel like I am so dull in understanding and so unbelieving. I perhaps are worst than Israelites crossing the red sea. I am a believing unbeliever. I had the greatest miracle standing in front of me. Christ died for me upon the cross shedding His royal blood. The Jews they have their eyes blinded, but my eyes are opened, yet, still not believing. The concept of Jesus has became in me a custom, a cliche, a word. I do not know Jesus. I am like the disciples, standing before Jesus, yet being so dull of heart, never perceiving. Because if I would've understood and perceived, I would be weeping on the floor wiping Jesus feet with my hair like Mary. My heart has no feeling of the cross, but a nice fairy tale. It's painful the I can be so numb of the cross.
Doesn't Jesus deserve my worship? Tell me if He is worthy? Why am I still struggling with bitterness and unforgiveness? Didn't He love me enough to suffer for me? Doesn't He deserve a little bit more in our worship sessions? Doesn't He deserve for me to forgive people and love them? Doesn't he deserve a little bit more sharing about Him unashamedly to people? Why is it that I dishonor Him by my timidity? How is it that when the greatest leader is so low, that a lower servant can be somehow higher? Jesus, I don't know you.
My heart is overwhelmed with His mercy. His judgement is to protect His mercy. Without His judgement, He cannot protect His mercy and love to His people. As I was ready to eat dinner, my heart is wounded by the fact of His great great mercy. Ah! Great is thy mercy! Oh my Lord! I can feel little bit. I thought about my family, how God had mercy upon us, again and again to show our family His great love. Ah! We don't deserve this favor and mercy. Thought the devil attempts to kill us many times. The Lord had mercy upon us. God is a God priority in family. He is in the business of restoring family more than anything else. It is family that He seeks to fix because it represents something dear to Him. The redemptive purposes is to bring back the family that once belong to Him. In His love, my family is slowly coming back together from broken pieces.
At this time, I am already feeling the Lord upon me. I want to worship and weep. I thought about a friend, who's about to leave. I never feel such love to him before. But I feel like I will greatly miss him. He came in the house and brought a huge package for me. It is my Jacket, cell phone, and wallet. I had not felt so happy before.
I understood that this is what God is saying to me. I had lost these things in my life: communication with God and others, covering for shame and authority, and wealth of love and resource. But the Lord is restoring me again out of His great love. In the most unlikely circumstances which he had set up. He sends forth his present. So let's worship now...
I'd lost my cell phone, wallet, and my new sports coat during my visit to Ihop. I was greatly disappointed. It's been so long now, I had lost all hope.
Today as I'm watching these videos below. My heart was stirred and so touched. I feel like I am so dull in understanding and so unbelieving. I perhaps are worst than Israelites crossing the red sea. I am a believing unbeliever. I had the greatest miracle standing in front of me. Christ died for me upon the cross shedding His royal blood. The Jews they have their eyes blinded, but my eyes are opened, yet, still not believing. The concept of Jesus has became in me a custom, a cliche, a word. I do not know Jesus. I am like the disciples, standing before Jesus, yet being so dull of heart, never perceiving. Because if I would've understood and perceived, I would be weeping on the floor wiping Jesus feet with my hair like Mary. My heart has no feeling of the cross, but a nice fairy tale. It's painful the I can be so numb of the cross.
Doesn't Jesus deserve my worship? Tell me if He is worthy? Why am I still struggling with bitterness and unforgiveness? Didn't He love me enough to suffer for me? Doesn't He deserve a little bit more in our worship sessions? Doesn't He deserve for me to forgive people and love them? Doesn't he deserve a little bit more sharing about Him unashamedly to people? Why is it that I dishonor Him by my timidity? How is it that when the greatest leader is so low, that a lower servant can be somehow higher? Jesus, I don't know you.
My heart is overwhelmed with His mercy. His judgement is to protect His mercy. Without His judgement, He cannot protect His mercy and love to His people. As I was ready to eat dinner, my heart is wounded by the fact of His great great mercy. Ah! Great is thy mercy! Oh my Lord! I can feel little bit. I thought about my family, how God had mercy upon us, again and again to show our family His great love. Ah! We don't deserve this favor and mercy. Thought the devil attempts to kill us many times. The Lord had mercy upon us. God is a God priority in family. He is in the business of restoring family more than anything else. It is family that He seeks to fix because it represents something dear to Him. The redemptive purposes is to bring back the family that once belong to Him. In His love, my family is slowly coming back together from broken pieces.
At this time, I am already feeling the Lord upon me. I want to worship and weep. I thought about a friend, who's about to leave. I never feel such love to him before. But I feel like I will greatly miss him. He came in the house and brought a huge package for me. It is my Jacket, cell phone, and wallet. I had not felt so happy before.
I understood that this is what God is saying to me. I had lost these things in my life: communication with God and others, covering for shame and authority, and wealth of love and resource. But the Lord is restoring me again out of His great love. In the most unlikely circumstances which he had set up. He sends forth his present. So let's worship now...
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